The power of feminine divine is within me.
I claim my beauty and my strength,
my dignity and humour,
my passion and compassion.
I honor myself as I honor all life.

Most things, I deal with.. sometimes I don't really deal with it, I push it to the back of my mind.... hoping the matter will be forgotten... yet as we all know it drills it's way to the surface. I know my strength, my will and stubbornness but sometimes it just isn't enough... as thoughts invade my mind keeping me awake at night... battling their way to a migraine. Trying to shut my mind off is like trying to pound nails with a screwdriver. I know what it is I want... I want spiritual fulfillment and joy in sharing the essence of divinity. It's a hard road to travel... baby steps... baby steps. I hung out with Naf last Friday for a bit and it was so amazing ! Just the two of us walking around... talking about anything and everything... we ate at Salad King. I can't wait to see him again. My mom and brother left for India last week... I hope they get to say their final good bye to our grandparents despite family politics. I wish I was there with them, all I really want right now is to spend time with my grandparents... I just want to hold them, and be there for their final days. I've become close with a certain individual with whom I share surreal similarities... I became lost in his trance... over time I came to the realization that no matter how many similarities we shared... we shared just as many differences. The amount of things going on right now are insane.... of course I would never never discuss major issues in a journal... I keep that for super light issues.... So much is going on and I can't even say that I'm depressed... I'm slowly changing... evolving if you will... but to what ? I guess I'll just leave that be for now... all I am sure of is that I'm confused... how's that for a kick in the ass. Cheers !

If you're ever confused about a guy just remember this:
Words are just words...
ACTIONS speak louder then words...
talk is cheap remember that.

Relationships are quite interesting... sometimes when we know what has to be done... we still don't do it ! Emotions along with attachment cloud our judgment... if we only took our own bloody advice, we would all be better off. We trap ourselves....

We can't stop ourselves from picking up the dropped soap... and they can't help but ram us in the ass