Most things, I deal with.. sometimes I don't really deal with it, I push it to the back of my mind.... hoping the matter will be forgotten... yet as we all know it drills it's way to the surface. I know my strength, my will and stubbornness but sometimes it just isn't enough... as thoughts invade my mind keeping me awake at night... battling their way to a migraine. Trying to shut my mind off is like trying to pound nails with a screwdriver. I know what it is I want... I want spiritual fulfillment and joy in sharing the essence of divinity. It's a hard road to travel... baby steps... baby steps. I hung out with Naf last Friday for a bit and it was so amazing ! Just the two of us walking around... talking about anything and everything... we ate at Salad King. I can't wait to see him again. My mom and brother left for India last week... I hope they get to say their final good bye to our grandparents despite family politics. I wish I was there with them, all I really want right now is to spend time with my grandparents... I just want to hold them, and be there for their final days. I've become close with a certain individual with whom I share surreal similarities... I became lost in his trance... over time I came to the realization that no matter how many similarities we shared... we shared just as many differences. The amount of things going on right now are insane.... of course I would never never discuss major issues in a journal... I keep that for super light issues.... So much is going on and I can't even say that I'm depressed... I'm slowly changing... evolving if you will... but to what ? I guess I'll just leave that be for now... all I am sure of is that I'm confused... how's that for a kick in the ass. Cheers !